Triumphs and Tragedies

I just had a close friend lose a serious boyfriend. She is pretty broken up about it. Thinking about her grief brought me back to my own. I lost one of my sisters a couple of years ago and it will always be tragic to me.
I was just contemplating life and death and how they are both so surreal. It is weird how when you experience the birth of your child you feel everything so intensely. Their smell, your love, the warmth of their skin against yours, it's all so amazing; But when you lose someone you love everything becomes so numb. It's hard to feel anything except for your grief . Food doesn't even taste good anymore. You kind of just force yourself to go through the motions of life for awhile and slowly things start to normalize.
It is all so remarkable- life, death, and everything in between. I just hope that I will always be grateful to be part of the triumphs and tragedies that we experience in this life.

Blog Dedication

As I was contemplating my own desire to start up a blog I had to admit that it is somewhat of a selfish endeavor, but that is exactly what I need it to be. As other dedicated mothers and wives can probably attest, most of the time it feels as if your life is not about you anymore, which actually is a blessing, but there are those times when you sit back and think; Gosh, do I know who I am anymore? Do I even spend one eighth of the time thinking about my own progression as I do about my family's?
I currently have three beautiful little boys and an amazing husband and I have come to the realization that I want more children, but that I also have individual goals and dreams and there is no reason I can't accomplish both. It will just take a little more focus and determination! Hopefully this blog will be a spot that I can document my hopes, dreams, and accomplishments, whether they be big or small. I know I will receive wonderful feedback from the people I love and who continually support and inspire me.